Been cleaning this morning, which is pretty much standard for me on a saturday morning. I’m listening to another one of my favorite bands, Incubus. “Wish you were here” is playing. It makes me think about that inexplicable ”love thing” again. I had an interesting conversation with my ex-boyfriend a bit ago. We had a very passionate and tumultuous relationship. I am a very passionate person, so it is surprising for me that I haven’t met anyone who has inspired me to want to make that jump into a relationship. I just haven’t met the right person and I guess that is ok, too.  When the time is right things will fall into place, at least that is what I tell myself. As far as the conversation between me and the ex, I’ll save that conversation for the blog in my head. Anyhow, I think the song, along with some different interactions with the people in my life have the wheels spinning in my mind. Why is it that we come across certain people and they have an effect on us somehow? We think of them, wonder about them and interact with them the way we do. I know that’s a very vague statement. But when it comes to my innermost thoughts and feelings, I don’t share them with many. I can talk a lot. This is no secret, but sometimes it’s better just to listen and observe the world around you. I don’t want everyone to know what I am thinking all the time. I am selective about who I allow to truly know me. Plus, sometimes you really just need to shut up and keep some things personal and private.

“Pardon me” by Incubus is now blasting on the iPod. “Pardon me while I burst into flames.” ”Pardon me, I’ll never be the same.” 

I remember when I was a kid, I was riding in the car with my mom. There was this song on the radio. I don’t recall the song, but I do remember the sentiment. This girl was singing about how she was in love with this guy, she missed him and how he broke her heart. She sounded so tortured and sad. (Sounds like a lot of songs theses days.)  I was really young, so I couldn’t understand the complexities and temporary insanity people sometimes seem to go through when their mind and heart is overtaken by love. I had asked my mom what in the heck was wrong with this girl on the radio. My mom just told me, sometimes love was just like that. People really go through those kinds of feelings. I get it now, of course. Well, at least I think I do. The behaviour of the opposite sex will never cease to amaze me, though I can bet men feel the same way towards women.

“Acqueous Transmission” by Incubus is a really sexy song. “Share what we both discover and revel in the view…” The instrumentals are awesome. I listen to it and can imagine myself missing my non-existant ‘dream lover’, while floating down a river, beneath the moonlit and starry night. “I’m floating down the river…”  I love Incubus.

Ok, well that’s enough out of me, for now. I’m going to let my mind wander on. Maybe I’ll have a complete thought later. I keep imagining ’stuff,’ that is more distracting than productive. I’m going to go and  be productive.